Lyrics

Changing

Darling, I wake up with the desperate anguish
Darling, I fall asleep with the deep despair
I feel insane inside when you up and vanish
I feel insane inside even when you’re there

There is resistance from my troubled mind
But I’m finding my heart’s not nearly as compliant
Days rolling into weeks, rolling into years
And I am a slave to all my deepest fears

While the scent of you is whistling through my sorrow
Telling me there is always tomorrow
For changing, for changing
Tomorrow’s for changing

And even the buzzing in my head is tired
Exhausted the system that’s so keenly wired
To all of your energy surging within me
All of your energy dancing within me

While the scent of you is whistling through my sorrow
Telling me there is always tomorrow
For changing, for changing
Tomorrow’s for changing

Darling, I wake up with the desperate anguish
I fall asleep with the deep despair
I wish that the pain inside would up and vanish
But I can work with it if I know it’s there for changing
For changing
Tomorrow’s for changing

Fantasy Girl

6pm rolls ‘round again
My day full of distraction fades away
And I can taste the salt of my heartache

In my grand and ideal life
I do not have all these vices to depend on
I am calm and present in my mind

But I am not that strong
To deny the fantasy for a reality that’s wrong
And though you tell me it’s not real,
How can you disregard the depth of loving that I feel?

I cannot find the resolve
And any song I’m writing always seems to roll
Into something I’ve heard before

So if I focus in my mind
On the grand design I wrote and catered to myself
Maybe then I’d find the rhyme

But I am not that smart
To deny the fantasy for a reality that’s hard
And this is not that song
When the chords I need to find are ones that always take too long

And I’m not someone who ever likes being wrong
I am not someone who loves without requirement to belong

6pm rolls ‘round again
My day full of distraction fades away
And I can taste the salt of my heartache

In my grand and ideal life
I do not have these vices to depend on
I am calm and present in my mind

Lost In Time

Space today ain’t space tomorrow
I’m drowning in my sorrow
As my future’s drifting further from me

Trying to reconcile the difference
Between the child that I was
And the woman that I’ve turned out to be

I am the dreamer
And we’re lost in time
Foolish believer
In every sign

But it’s the nervousness of waiting
For any kind of motivation
To feel comfortable in life’s cold embrace

Every truth that dawns upon me
Screams “DIVINE INTERVENTION!”
But the tension guts and conquers the race

I am the dreamer
And we’re lost in time
Foolish believer
In every sign

Love is not an inhale
Love is not an inhale
Love is an exhale
Love is an exhale
Love should not be an inhale
Love is not an inhale
Love should feel like an exhale
Love is an exhale

Daydreaming alone; that’s when I’m home and I’m floating

Lost in time
Lost in time
Lost in time
Lost in time

Stop Starting Tomorrow

Stop starting tomorrow
It’s only adding to your sorrow
You find a hole where you can burrow
And you squander it away

Stop leaning on the future
Procrastination doesn’t suit ya
Stop starting tomorrow
Start starting today

And if you feel the energy you’re putting out isn’t worth what its providing
You keep trying
You’ll see that doing anything is better than the struggle of deciding
And if you think that what you’ve done is not enough you can console yourself in knowing
You’re not throwing time away
You’re just starting today

So stop starting tomorrow
It’s only adding to your sorrow
You find a hole where you can burrow
And you squander it away

Stop leaning on the future
Procrastination doesn’t suit ya
Stop starting tomorrow
Start starting today Stop Starting Tomorrow

Teetering

Teetering
Teetering
Teetering on the edge

Teetering
Teetering
Teetering off the ledge

The more I grow, the less I know
I have no real direction
The guiding light is never right
It’s always misdirecting
And I’m teetering
Teetering on the edge

There’s nothing you could have said to make me fearless
I’ll never know how to be
There’s nothing I could have tried to not be reckless
It’s the fidget inside of me

The emptiness keeps swelling out
And poison’s all the better days
I don’t believe in happiness
At least, not in the usual way
There is no time to sit in peace
There’s only expectation
There is no day that I can breathe
And no justification
For my teetering
Teetering

There’s nothing you could have said to make me fearless
I’ll never know how to be
There’s nothing I could have tried to not be reckless
It’s the fidget inside of me

And every wave and every curse
And every storm and every hurt
Has only made me weak
So if I don’t jump off now
I know I never will
There is no “biding time”
There’s just “be, or never be”

And I can’t be
Teetering
Teetering
Teetering on the edge
I will not be
Teetering
Teetering

Whisper

I hear the whisper scratching in my mind
Ever wistful and kind
I feel the instinct surface in my stomach
Ever turning the tide

As I sniff the colours that dance upon the window
I sense the morning rise
Then sink in my hole where I don’t find release
Until I find it where it’s always been before

Even the plan that the gods had sent to cage me couldn’t take me down
I am escaping now

Present in the day
Present in the mind
Present in the break
Present in the cry

I hear the voice; its rambling through the airwaves
And the dream keeps me alive
It speaks of truth and unsituated freedom
And it warms the cold I feel inside

And the murmur is blinding; senses intertwining
Send my spirit to the light
Peaceful as the bird who sings not needing to be heard
And shapes the day with every flight

Even the plan that the gods had sent to cage me couldn’t take me down
I am escaping now

Yeah, Alright, Thanks

Yeah, alright, thanks
I haven’t cried so much today
My disregard for tomorrow is not so far away
And there’s melodies I’m missing, and I smoked away my pay
Yeah, alright, thanks
I haven’t cried so much today

If you’re wondering
Well I’m doing pretty good
Swallowed up by the emptiness I’ve never understood
But my therapist keeps telling me I did all that I could
So if you’re wondering
Well I’m doing pretty good

Yesterday and tomorrow are chasing me
And though I’m light on my feet
I still always get beat by
Wasting time worrying about wasting time

It’s cold and lonely
When you shut the world away
And life is only a game you have to play
But your smile will catch me off guard and I’ll tell you I’m okay
Yeah, alright, thanks
I haven’t cried so much today
It’s cold and lonely
When you shut your heart away